An antidepressant, in the most common usage, is a medication taken to alleviate clinical depression or dysthymia ('milder' depression).
Clinical depression (also called major depressive disorder, or sometimes unipolar when compared with bipolar disorder) is a state of intense sadness, melancholia or despair that has advanced to the point of being disruptive to an individual's social functioning and/or activities of daily living.
I have been diagnosed with Clinical Depression. It is a constant struggle in my life to deal with it, to not hide in my bed, or hide on the computer, or to hide in a book or watching TV. It is a constant struggle to not sleep my days away, it is a constant struggle to not yell and scream at my children for no reason at all, it is a constant struggle to keep my marriage alive and well. My life is a struggle, but I am winning with the help of my drugs.
Some say that no one needs antidepressants. That it is all in your mind, that you can "will" yourself better. I disagree. Nothing can "will" me to be better, never in my life can I remember feeling as good as I do when I am on my drugs. I wish that I had found antidepressants throughout high school, maybe my high school life wouldn't have been so miserable, and I wouldn't have had to do drugs to escape the world. Looking back, I see all the signs of depression, which some people thought were just ways for me to act out. I attempted to kill myself FIVE times. Doesn't that show anything? Of course, looking back I can see that I didn't really try to kill myself, I didn't cut deep enough ever, but it WAS a sign of my depression. True, my parents didn't ignore it. I got sent to a mental hospital, where I rebelled and acted like I got better, so that I could get out and I could go get high with my friends.
If I was smart, I would have taken the help that I was offered.
I should be in counseling now, but I just can't make myself do it. i try. Everyday I try to make myself make that phone call and just make that first appointment. But then these days I feel good. Because of my medication. So I say to myself that I don't need the help, knowing full well that I do.
Maybe I will call tomorrowLabels: anitdeppressants, deppression |
